Labuan Matriculation College , a bless or a curse ?

In the name of Allah, The Beneficent, The Merciful…

1 week left, before I go to Labuan’s Matriculation College. I didn’t feel happy or excited. To be honest, I am quite disappointed that I didn’t got any offer in foundation from any university.( Except from UNISEL ) I was a lil’ jealous too when some of people from other school that have a lower result than me got the offer. Really makes me down ! is this what my mum feel when I didn’t get the ‘Maktab’ offer ? huh..

But then, when I think ‘bout it again, I was like, hmm, ngam la bha. My result pun didn’t good enough. That’s why I didn’t get any offer , maybe. Lagipun, dapat offer matriks nih pun kira ok la. Patut syukur kan. Even rasa disappointed tu belum hilang sepenuhnya, I try to comfort myself that things happen for a reason. So I have to ‘redha’. Ini ketentuan-Nya kan. Maybe He already plan somethings good for me. insyaAllah.

So, l already started prepared all the things, and settled what I have to. Even when I’m not excited at all. And, as always, my beloved umi la yang bersusah-payah, bertungkus-lumus membantu menyiapkan segala persiapan aku. Aba, macam selalu la. Macam x kisah seja. But I know, he do care. He just didn’t want to show it. Ah. Sedih pulak, L lepas ni susa suda mau manja-manja dengan umi. X bole suda jaga umi, tengok-tengok umi. I know I am not a good daughter for her, but trust me I love her more than she can imagine !

I am touched  when umi said that she already felt sad even I still have 1 week more before go to the Matriks. Kunun umi terbayang-bayang macamana la hidup aku disana. Aku masih di rumah, umi suda cakap gitu, kalau suda masuk sana?  Teringat satu ceramah hari tu, penceramah tu cakap, bila ibu kita rindu kita pun, sudah menjadi dosa untuk kita. Even kita x sengaja.Then umi terus pesan supaya aku selalu call.   Hee.  InsyaAllah. I will, love . J

Sekarang hari-hari la aku bukak internet, bukak blog orang untuk carik maklumat macamana life disana nanti. Setakat ni, kira macam masih boleh terima lagi la. Melalui cerita-cerita ex-student, I guess it’s not that bad. Cuma memang mesti rajin la, x bole main-main. Everything suda settle. Tapi hati belum lagi bulat dan tekad mau pegi sana. Pendek kata, memang tiada hati la. Kadang-kadang berharap, bagusnya kalau masa-masa sekarang ni, tiba-tiba ada miracle, kunun-kunun dapat offer pgi tempat lain ka, kan bagus. Sebab aku masih x tau,  Labuan Matriculation College  is a bless or a curse to me. *sigh*

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Things Happens For A Reason

In the name of Allah, The Beneficent, The Merciful…

Believing that things happen for a reason has never disappointing me. It makes me strong when the sadness come to me, just like what had happen yesterday.

You know, my mum was hoping me to further my studies at the Teacher’s Institute or well known as ‘Maktab’ among Malaysian. Even I have told her many times that I didn’t have any interest to be a teacher but still, she told me to apply it. And as a daughter, do I have a choice? So, yesterday was the day where the institute announced the name those who they would called for an interview. And believe it or not, my name was not listed among those people. I was a lil’ bit surprised. As what I had expected, my mum was very very very disappointed when she knew the result. She should felt that way I guess. 

She put a high expectations that I will be call for an interview and able to further my study at the institute. She even always prays for that. So, I’m pretty sure that she was in a superb disappointed.  How about me? Well, to be honest I didn’t know what I should feel, and how should I react .  I didn’t think that I was sad for not being chosen to the interview, but I was only disappointed when I saw how disappointed my mum was. But I keep deny it when she ask me. That will be better I guess. I told her, maybe Allah have plan a better things for me. And maybe it will be better than this. Like what I always do before, I keep telling myself that things happen for a reason.

So then, I try to throw away that entire uneasy feel 'cause I also have a Nasyid’s Competition last night (singing competition). That is my first experience. You know what, I have never ever sing even in front of my family but I now joined the group and sing in front of lots of people. Don't know where all of those courage come from. But, everything was run smoothly. We perform well. I tried to give my best. And I was surprised when our group was announced as the winner. Oh. Alhamdulillah ~ I was so grateful.

Then, when I'm home, I was thinking, maybe this is the reason. Allah didn’t give me the chance to have the interview but He gives me the chance to win the competition. At least, I can help the Muslim’s teen to always remembering Allah. Most important, He pay the sadness with a happiness in a day. What a perfect day i have, right? 

p/s: always believe that things happens for a reason..:)